Family

This is one thing that I suddenly thought when I saw my cousin who just married last friday I think. Well, his marriage is a new news for me when my father suddenly ask me about do I want to join them to go to somewhere (bride's house) and I just thought, "Why would I go there?" and my father said that "It's your cousin, he's getting married tomorrow." And I was just "Which cousin?". I know that this seems like I don't care about my family, but in reality they just did not tell me anything. This kind of situation is what I think is normal especially from my point of view. Why I said that? Let's just say that suddenly my close friend ask me, "Hey, I heard that your brother just got engaged. Why I didn't know about it?" or suddenly my mother tell me that "Your cousin is getting married tomorrow" or "Next week is a big day for your brother, he is getting engaged." This kind of sudden news that always strike me when I away from home, when I have to continue my studies. Not only this, there were also some situation where I knew nothing about when their keep it secret from me and when I ask them what is it all about, they were just "It's nothing. Just don't mind about it." And I was like, "What am I? A wall? Am I not part of this family?" This is what makes me upset and I just hate when people that not part of my family is the first one that knew about my family and me? I am just some part of these family that somehow being left out and only knew about something after some situation happen and I hate that. What I try to say is, I don't mind if they want to keep it secret, but please at least share something even if its so small and please don't let people that not part of our family is the one who know it before me. And whatever it is, family is still family and I still had my respect and love towards my family.